I’ve just published this post on my other blog. However, for some reason, I feel compelled to post it here too!
I know it is not a Sunday, but I’ve been meaning to write this post for a few days now. I would like to officially thank the person who has been praying for me. It might be more than one person, admittedly. I cannot begin to tell you how thankful I am, and grateful that someone would care so much about me as to pray, and I also feel so humbled. I thank you so deeply.
This is not the first time I have written a post to thank people for their prayers. After I wrote that other post (here on “Huggie Wuggie”), people asked me how I knew that someone was praying. Let me tell you how I know this time.
A few days ago, a thought just “popped” into my mind, seemingly from nowhere, about something that I need to work on within myself. As it entered my mind, I instantly acknowledged it – as being clearly of God – and I said “Yes Lord!” And then I thought to myself – “Someone must be praying for me!” The truth is that even when the thought occurred to me about needing to be more gracious to people who have made mistakes regarding race and ethnicity, which covers the blog post I wrote last week, even as that thought came into my mind even then, I suspected that someone might be praying for me. So then when this subsequent thought occurred in a very similar way – from absolutely nowhere, but clearly being of God – the idea was all but confirmed, that this was a result of someone’s prayer.
Let me try and explain further. Because we are dealing with spiritual issues, it is sometimes easy to think that these things are shrouded in mystery – and they often are, of course. All the same though, there are still discernible patterns which can be identified. The pattern that is relevant here is how thoughts and ideas usually occur to me, how I usually come to an understanding about something. Usually, ideas come to me through quite deliberate thinking and analysis. I will think about something at great depth, and then because of that, related ideas might occur, new questions might spring up. But they will usually be related to something I have been thinking about. This is how I get most of my ideas about “Huggie-Wuggie” for instance. It is because I think about these issues so much, turning and twisting them over and over in my mind. Or I will read something in the Bible, and then an idea will occur to me, or it will connect to something that is already in my mind. So this is the discernible pattern of how things occur to me.
But then with the “gracist” thing, this new idea just came from absolutely nowhere. It was not related to anything I had been reading in the Bible, it was not related to any thoughts I had been thinking, blog posts giving me pause for thought. As I wrote on the post, I was a hundred percent sure I was right on this race issue – even one thousand per cent sure – and there was not even the tiniest room for negotiation – at all! And then this thought just hit me – bam! – and fully formed, fully developed – not something that I would need to think about, to grow a little here and there – and then also with such resounding conviction that I had no choice but to say in my heart – “Yes Lord!” It is as if I am looking at a chart of my own mental activity, and everything is humming merrily along at a pretty constant pace – and then suddenly there is a HUGE inexplicable spike – it is pretty obvious that something would have happened there. But what though?! So this what first got me thinking: “Hmmmm!” (Note how I did not make any reference to it on my post….!)
And then to think that the same thing happened again, this week – just like that, from nowhere, with the same resounding conviction! So I’m pretty sure that this would have been the result of somone’s prayers. And these things really cut through to my heart, to who I am in essence. And then the issues hit my heart so cleanly with such precision, that I can almost tell you verbatim what the person must have prayed.
So then, the question is, who has been praying? For once, I must admit that I am hoping that the answer to that question is not “Jesus”. That is, obviously I am not so unwise as to reject prayers from God Himself; however, I would find it quite flattering to think that there might be a less divine factor to this. (We know that Jesus prays for us because the Bible tells us so: Hebrews 7v25: “For He lives forever to intercede for them” (people who draw close to God through Him. Also Romans 8v34: He is seated at the right hand of God, where He is interceding for us.
I’m thinking that this is someone of deep spiritual maturity and sensitivity, who truly knows me; who has perhaps been observing me secretly without my knowledge, or who has been assessing me through my blogs. And then the issues that they prayed for would probably be issues that are deeply important to them (and that they know that I am weak on) – who do I know who would care about these sorts of issues?!
OK, this is the point where I am going to take a scary leap of faith, and unapologetically release myself into wishful thinking – I can’t help noticing that this happened literally just after I wrote my blog post here on this blog, asking God to give me a prayer warrior (as a husband). Could it be… could I dare to let myself think, that this could be someone demonstrating his credentials as a prayer warrior and thus a potential husband for me, by actually praying for me?
“Tosin, CALM DOWN GIRL!!!!” (I’m telling myself!) OK, let’s slow down, let’s breathe carefully…one….two…! Huggie-Wuggie….is….that… you?!!!
OR it could be one of my pastors, and the timing could just be a massive coincidence – which would be a little less exciting. But now you see the real reason why I’m hoping it’s not Jesus – ha ha!
All the same, whoever it is, I am so grateful, and I thank you so much. I will also endeavour to pray for you, (even though I don’t know who you are!) that God would take you deeper, ground you in Himself, bless you exceedingly. If I’m to be perfectly honest, I suspect I might have a slight inkling who it might be, based on the issues concerned – although that is probably (once again?!) a HUGE expression of wishful thinking – ha ha ha!
25 Therefore He is also able to save to the uttermost those who come to God through Him, since He always lives to make intercession for them.
18 praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints—
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